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LYRICS
Where should I start telling tales from this heavy heart
2nd of November 1998
or the second time my mother tried to end it
cus the pain wouldn’t subside
see I’ve been born 2 times
where should I start when I’ve never had nothing to begin with
but I guess that’s why they call it humble beginnings
sick of doing shit from scratch and getting nothing back
that’s nothing new in the past ignorance is bliss
I knew nothing that little something couldn’t last as time past
I got more rattled by these battle scars some were self inflicted
tryna stretch an inch into a mile
ignored my intuition peace of mind I was tail chasing mine kid was over thinking didn’t know there’s nothing to this life
where should I start naive boy with bright plans
pristine soul just a bystander to see himself
get walked over a time lapse of his worst moments
introverted with a loud mouth that’s a bad omen inadvertently lost all doubt
he was once hopeful it’s all jokes till the last laugh
lucky me I got a bad hand
ugly scenes in my city pretty bad couple fiends in the alleys picking scabs no love lost looking for a plan ducking karma
I was Ill advised image in my eyes of my demise
I cracked violence inside sirens outside strange boy
straight out the northside no for sight
no chance so lemme start
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2. |
Sorrow
03:40
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Nothing left for the gods to give
god forgive me
I’m lost again here sitting with these thoughts
again bottles empty when they tempt me
couple sips and I felt free
still standing on unsteady legs
a heavy head giving me neck pains
next day I’ll be the same
jumped in a bottle cus I thought it could sustain
but left nothing behind but bloody red stains
a blank memory and a bad new day
lost to my ways like so many others hand on my heart cus nobody loves us
scars all around from times
I got low smile on my face but inside it’s cold
that warm embrace ya feel is not so I’d say
that I lost it
but I never had hope there's something in the water
the body of a pauper the banshee is calling with her
I must go lost to my ways like so many others
hand on my heart cus nobody loves us
laughter dies down tears soon follow
when the drink dries up get drunk from the sorrow cry
to the birds and the bees and swallows
cry cus the earth beneath my feet feels hollow
cry with the wind when it wails on the Morrow
cry just to cry then cry tears of sorrow
hand on my heart cuz nobody loves
down on my luck getting comfy in the gutter
no helping hand ever help me to stand
I’m a wretched man born bred for a struggle
catch a break that’ll be the day the going gets easy
I see no trouble so wish good fortune on the unfortunate
when it rains it pours and clouds don’t pass
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LYRICS
I don’t like myself too much
I don’t want what’s best for my health
I don’t got no plans dunno why I keep to myself
cus I don’t like people so leave me alone
I’m grand I got shit that’s stressing me out everyday
and I don’t get paid enough for these raps
everybody wanna chat mad shit about me
but don’t say shit when it comes right back
that’s funny lads a dummy Humpty Dumpty
when I leave him where’s he’s left at
with his egg cracked never see me with a setback
just to step back when they say their the best
nah I don’t get that pissed off
with a pen better chop both hands barbaric
plus im Irish I’m just saying I’m both
Conans been doing this shit since 98
being a piece of shit man there's a price to pay
up all night I been putting in the work
since none of them gave me the time of day
empty belly no food in the fridge
rain came down quick when the roof came in
I don’t got no future things look bleak
so I drink most days man shits intense
I remember the quotation mark good old days
but I been troubled from the start god knows it’s been hard
tryna keep this faith I’d rather be dead and buried
with a curse then try live this way
it’s funny when I hear them laugh at my expense
but I don’t think they would if they only knew the price I pay
tryna figure out myself still up for debate
give a fuck about validation from opinions of people I hate
maybe I’m too cautious never made moves
weighing up my problems sleep all day on the couch
got no ambitions just wishes and a crumpled up bucket list
fuck it things been going downhill so much
I fall back on being self destructive as a crutch
cus I know it’s easier to give up
then get up not knowing who’s a friend
somebody you can trust
it’s all good till they figure out
why the bigger the smaller the frame
you sick of the snakes disguised in plain sight
nothing to do where I’m from except watch the paint dry
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4. |
Hahaha feat. Hazey Haze
03:45
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LYRICS
In the name of so and so we could come to blows settle scores
I could take your soul
life Is war pen is sword express myself
but can’t help myself anymore self sabotage
at a loss laughing stock see his flaws
then put him down he’s too proud
speaking foul teach him how ignorance is bliss innocence is bliss
I grew up too fast for me life came quick
young and dumb and ugly scummy as it gets
bummy as it gets stubborn should of quit stomaching some shit
I been through I seen the big truth
nobody saves you from shit audit how I live preach about my sins
profit from the squalor laugh at my misfortune
Treat me as you do
fear me as you should
keep me from your view
too afraid to look crumbs penny’s bumbs
lusting for a few pity’s not enough
but I can’t pick and choose wish I had some luck
stuck inside a slump once upon a time
I had the time to waste melancholy days empty promises empty stomach
out of date on my plate chasing tails
never good enough fuck a compromise
I’ll keep fucking up paralysed from the mind
down point of view is similar to rain clouds shit is grey piss away
a privilege still the same kid that got the shit kicked out him every day
nothing changed cept I fight back now they don’t like that
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Grief
03:51
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LYRICS
Misplaced my heart too many times to count
lost parts of me never again to be found
dedicated to the pity it consoles me
well self hate cus love left along with the ringing of the bells
couple a screws unloose in my head
couple of times almost tied that knot on the noose
wrapped round my neck plenty of times
stepped off that school had regrets
melancholy she sings to me sweet
with misery in her voice
beckoning me to that hellish place
that never seen god's light
and sometimes I pursue but other times I’m on the brew
passing by my time
Misplaced my heart too many times to count
distrust myself whenever she comes round
with her talk of torment and talk of death
with a smile that lies and her eyes that tell tales
that weave sadness around me
but I guess I’m a lesser man
I guess I’m a desperate man for some peace of mind
I so need to pay the cost is not cheap
but the smell of sorrow it reeks and lingers on too long
so I pour myself another drop and start singing all these songs
cus most days I’m weak and sometimes I’m strong
but most days I spend my time writing all these wrongs
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6. |
Waiting
04:37
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LYRICS
Smokey days came then exhaled
Shakey ground had me pulling weight
Trips around estates I weren’t keen to stay
but if peer pressure hears your name called you don’t have a say
And if the shades call you don’t say your name
And if them lights flash then we taking chase
go head and light that smoke until your brains
That’s the tone of my home it’s all
Hopeful dreams of getting outta life alive
Unholy schemes utilized to try survive
Get out the dirt easy nah you’d be surprised
cus when golds in the soil it’s so hard to say goodbye
Once more to be a fool walking school through the foggy dew
dumb know it all flying blind
stop peeking out that window mind your business close them blinds
Parasites been sucking blood I’m pale white like the sky
I’m conflicted in this life
good heart but bad intentions I’m afflicted by my times
Fucks a job role models not about got left behind
excuse excuses but I plead play the victim pay the price
Laughing crying silent I’m addicted to the lies
I’m too spiteful breaking bread forgiveness
shit is not my style came out the womb with a chip on my shoulder
my demise my oh my
Father drinking mother crying night time lullabies
what am I paying for praying for better times
heavy eyes steady hands waiting way more
happy days never came anyways nothing changed
vacate from myself on my heart there’s a strain
what am I paying for praying for better times
heavy eyes steady hands waiting way more
happy days never came anyways nothing changed
vacate from myself on my heart there’s a strain
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Melancholy
03:38
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LYRICS
Sitting here in an empty room
full a cigarette smoke and deadly fumes
exhaling the last bit of life in my lungs
as I grab for a glass of that sweet brown stuff
as I sip it gently and it burns my throat
hear the ghost tiptoeing round my body
so cold looking back on some things I’ve done
Misery’s a common thread in this tale I’ve spun
temptations one thing I couldn’t overcome
damnation where I’m headed
I could of had it won if god gave me some luck
coulda had a good run numbing pain as per usual
I’m used to the hung heads
shameful and weathered by the strain
always need something to fill a void
wouldn’t believe what I’ve seen
shook to the core behind these closed doors
bloody decor struggle poor with pride
story’s told passed down these bloodlines
the older minds advice was always to keep it check
wiser heads never prevailed got cut at the neck
the lash of the tongue couldn’t cut us
naive to the threats ignorance was the crest
worn bad days were intense
melancholy bittersweet better off with less
make do with nothing my own heart I neglect
It feels like these 4 walls closing in on me fast
it feels like my names next to get engraved on a slab
I complain but I’m told just talk about the way things are
it might help with the pain but I pour my heart out it still beats to this day
shed so many tears nobody sees
that it’s all in vain who am I to say
I got it bad the next man had nothing
but a rope or a bottle of pills sees no other options too many problems
tip the scales now the family stands over the grave
black clothes and red roses in the rain
I’m not the type to pray
but I really hope god does have a plan
it’s like every couple months
someone too young to die takes their life
now this shits getting outa hand
plus there's nothing to do where I’m from
except sip from a glass watch pain dry
or talk shit with the lads even though we don’t admit it
each other is all we have whenever our luck was down
we told each other it’s grand but it’s not people all around us start to drop
wanna make it out my city
god I hope I don’t flop
cus I got nothing going for me round here
and the view looks depressing from down here
I don’t feel proud here
man somethings gotta give
sick of scraping the bottom of the barrel for these bits
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8. |
Blood
02:40
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LYRICS
Lest I become happy gotta sabotage things for myself
gladly banshee in a glass that’s sweet
big things on my mind can’t sleep
can’t bear anymore responsibly too much pressure giving me a head rush
and my friends notice that I haven’t said much
and these scars say more than my words could
and my heart beats hard for some lost love
I’m an inside out type so numb
some say so what that’s life duh but things don’t seem so simple to me
invest myself into toxic things
I’m a lost cause what’s the cost of living to please
I’d bleed to be anybody but me
the blood on my hands is my blood
the blood on my scars is my blood
the blood on my mind is my blood
the blood on my feet is my blood
the blood on my genes is my blood
the blood of defeat the blood of defeat
(2x)
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Missing
04:17
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LYRICS
You ever feel like you’re always low
you ever feel like your always cold
you ever feel like your worthless everything seems hopeless
tell me where it all went wrong
I’m still tryna figure out myself
I made some mistakes I’ll never forget
but they won’t let me move on
feels like I’ll die young tell me where I lost myself
Once was a degenerate had no goals in life
blood cold from strife mind numb to go with it wasn’t dumb
just ignorant there’s a difference your missing it
product of his surroundings his environment wasn’t privileged
talking tough was mandatory to the kid
his mouth got him into trouble that he should of dipped
his pride pushed him into struggles that he coulda missed
couple cuts and bruises he was used to
cus he’s numb as shit eww people say he’s crazy
that he got a couple screws loose up in his head
but he know none of that is true
another lost soul he was looking for the truth
thought he found it in a bottle till the bottle took his youth
now nothings been the same since the one that got away
self deprecation couldn’t mend the heart break
now he’s at the bottom of the barrel down on his luck
stuck between a rock and hard place
And if tomorrow never comes
tears of sorrow gonna run down the cheeks
of the peeps that felt sorry for the bum
he was too weak to ever be a good father to his son
nobody blame him he was always a victim of his ways
wallowing in self pity he was always on the run from himself
tail chasing no prayed coulda saved him salvation
was a stretch damnation he was booked for
could afford nothing less tension in the rope swinging
tied around his broken neck lacked
conviction never had attention shown to him
an afterthought in the mind of those that’s known to him
now he’s a human chandelier swinging at room
temperature never assume something better could come to him soon
the side effects of living life like
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10. |
Prayers
03:07
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LYRICS
Bless me god when you test me
I been less of a man since shit got tough
Check me when I get empty
when this heads heavy and I feel like life’s too tough
bless me devils they tempt me
tryna convince me your the one that’s crooked
been walking this desert looking for you
come quench my thirst down and out
nobody knows you when you're down and out
loud and proud I’m shouting out
fuck anybody than me
just me and myself bad company
so it’s fuck life till death comes for me
gonna cut ties lest you got love for me
Paleboy got the vision
day ones stay committed the pay off coming quick
when i said what I said ya it is what it is
I got plans for my family struggling
I got mad dreams of us living untroubled
by the things that had us in fear
I’m a humble king nothing lavish round here
knockadali on death's door I don’t got no fear
fuck an apology no I am not sincere
do what you wanna do I don’t got no care
don’t come around here acting like you been there from the start
when you’ve licked your last arse and got nowhere hand on my heart
you are not in here devils in my ear talk shit but now shits clear
gods got me im good got lots you need to hear
Slick with the words that I spit
from a verse the first time I wrote some shit
it was back in 2013 same time I was slacking
never in school outside I was snapping social workers tryna take me away but godknows wasn’t gonna let that happen
I don’t got time to be waiting for none all my life
been patient hoping one day shit might change for the best
but I’m 22 now and shits looking hopeless
drinking smoking sleeping waking up each day
to go through the motions pleasure with pain I pay
through the nose measure my worth
with silver and gold both of which I got none of
is it enough that I’m getting by
nothing in the fridge is edible
I’m past the point of giving a shit about rap
if the cash is light and they say be grateful for the roof over your head
but that shit caved in aswell
sometimes I don’t feel so swell
long nights getting no sleep cold sweats past mistakes
cause me some regrets thoughts weigh heavy on my head
stand unsteady on my legs
many old friends went downhill ever since then
I been looking for a one way ticket
all expenses paid get away from the city that raised me
hateful thoughts wanna bother me daily
bless me god when you test me
I been less of a man since shit got rough
check me when I get empty
when this heads heavy and I feel like life’s too tough
bless me devils they tempt me
tryna convince me your the one that’s crooked
been walking this desert still looking for you
come quench my thirst
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Strange Boy Limerick, Ireland
Strange Boy is a 1000 year old poet channelling through the body of a young man from Limerick. With hard hitting, thought- provoking lyrics, Strange Boy’s unique mastery of flow renders him one of the most important rappers of our time. Anyone on the Irish music scene would have heard of Strange Boy FKA Jonen Dekay. ... more
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